This morning you are attending the funeral of a very sweet lady who was important to you in your growing up years.  You could have stayed home to relax, read, play with your boys, or watch TV.  But you did what your gut was telling you and traveled up to Portland to honor her.  

I'm pretty sure that Ildra's kind, gentle, non-judging spirit helped form you into the man you are today.  Good call on taking the road requiring more effort today.